DL Zeta's Celestial Vision

Some people awakened during the Harmonic Convergence. Many others have awakened since. This is a place where we can share stories of awakening experiences.

Winter Solstice 1999: An Unexpected Turning Point
In the late 90s, these ideas were percolating in my consciousness. By the
winter solstice 1999, some major changes were taking shape in my life. At
that time, I was seeing a man who introduced me to meditation and yoga. I
was grateful for the world that was opening before me but heartbroken
about his binge drinking, which got out of control at times. What was
starting to become clear in my life was a reoccurring pattern of painful
relationships, bouts of depression and illness that made up a shadow
existence. This shadow world ran parallel to the spiritual breakthroughs
and insights opening doorways in my consciousness and leading me on
inner journeys into the unknown. My spiritual self had now finally gained
enough muscle to attempt to transform this parallel shadow life. I have no
doubt this was all according to the design I set forth for this lifetime before
coming here. This dark, parallel life served as contrast to the light, helping
deepen understandings while awakening and preparing me to serve as a
guide for other awakening souls.

An unexpected turning point in my journey came during that winter of 1999
when I decided to talk about my troubled feelings with the man I was
seeing. We spent the night talking about his drinking and our relationship.
We talked for hours about the difficulties that had arisen between us, our
different perspectives, and without any resolution, agreeing on the fact we
cared about each other. As we lay side by side with candlelight casting
shadows on the wall above us, I felt a deep well of misery and sadness
inside me that I'd known all my life. It seemed my entire life was up in my
face.

Entering an Alternate Dimension

I closed my eyes and reached out for answers, asking for some way to
understand the troubled patterns that had ruled my life up to that point. As
I turned the driving energy of my angst into an inner question, the answer
arrived with such light-speed force it seemed to catapult me into another
dimension. It was as if a part of me had been waiting for a long time for me
to arrive at this very question. The asking triggered the release of such an
incredible backwash of unopened etheric mail it shook me from my
seemingly solid moorings in physical reality. A door opened -- an
energetic portal that transported me into an alternate reality I experienced
as a moment of pure vision. My consciousness stretched and expanded,
giving me a glimpse of a great, gaping expanse of infinity. It was as if I was
lifted to a mountaintop where I could look out over the landscape of what
had been my life and see it all as one piece. The sensations I experienced
were beyond description. I felt totally free, lifted above suffering. I levitated
above angst, outside of time and space. A great sense of peace and love
enveloped me in a golden light that seemed to surround everything.

I began to speak quietly from that opening, at first about the relationship,
calmly explaining his viewpoint, my viewpoint, and the larger picture of our
relationship. Beyond that, I talked about the universe, how it works and
how we fit into that bigger picture. I could see much more than I knew, as if
a curtain between two worlds had parted.
At first, we were both startled by this shift. It was obvious something
significant was happening. We began a dialog with the presence in the
room that went on throughout the night and into the next morning.

Encouraged by this knowing presence, I continued to put words to the
powerful energy surging through me. During that time, we probed the
deep, metaphysical mysteries of life. For any question we thought to ask, I
received an immediate answer. Any situation brought to mind was
immediately understood in the next second. During this powerful shift, the
problems that had weighed heavily on me the day before seem to dissolve
like mists in sunlight.

Automatic Writing and Steps to Accessing Higher Consciousness

When I went home the next day, I hardly felt tired despite staying up all
night. Still lit inside, I took out my journal and began to write down the
thoughts rocketing through my mind at warp speed. I wrote 20 pages, just
free writing, letting thoughts flow onto the page. Later, I came to
understand this as a form of automatic writing, similar to the technique
Yeats and his wife had used. What came through were directions on how to
change my life, instructions on how to connect with this energy at will, and
some changes I could make in my life to better facilitate that. I knew I
wanted more than anything to be in this feeling state all the time. I felt a
sense of joy and well-being I had never known.
The next couple of days, I continued to meditate and use this technique of
automatic writing. I would sit down with my journal, clear my mind, and
wait for words to come. I wrote as fast as I could. Some of the information
that came through was about how to reach a certain place in
consciousness. I was told a door had opened that I could always re-enter.

For the time being, I had a list of things I had been directed to do. First,
clear up the energy in my house; second, clear up the energy in my body
with yoga and a healthier diet. Third, take steps on my spiritual path, and
fourth, examine all close relationships.
During that time, I felt drawn to get out my paints and begin painting. The
end result was a large green canvas with an oval shape in the center. It
looked like a doorway of light. The painting symbolized the portal I had
accessed within myself. This was a place in consciousness I could return
to whenever I wanted. The energy of this opening would fade over time,
though its essence stayed with me.